This morning I write about letting go. The never-ending list of letting go brings me to make an inventory about how I feel in my world, in my day. Is this how I want to feel? What is there to keep? Should I fix it? Should I even try? Should I just let go?
When I count my blessings, solitude is one of them. I feel grateful for the strength to choose this way of life. It took me a while to clean up my life from negative vibes. I did not change my phone number and I did not move far away. In fact, even before I started to cleanse my relations, most of the negative acquaintances had already rejected me. Most of them felt intimidated by the vibrant, exuberant, passionate woman that I am. They think I changed and change scares many people. My truth is that I lost track of myself and found my way back home.
Yes, it is a journey in itself. Someday I feel vulnerable. I trick myself into believing I could dial back in their lives and sham myself into the person they want me to be. Just so you know, it rarely turns out in a luminous celebration of long lost friendships. Cleansing takes bravery and commitment.
Misery is a way of life; happiness is a state of mind.
Proverbs from Tibet
Before I go any further, I want to clear one thing. Seclusion is not solitude. Even if seclusion brings you solitude, the paradox is in the withdrawal. Solitude feels amazing, withdrawal not so much. Nevertheless, in the beginning, solitude gave me time to rationalize way too much which can feel a little bit uncomfortable. Old emotions are old habits and they stick as long as we let them. Old emotions are often harder to detect and by the time it operates fully in my headspace and in my body, I already slipped into The MOOD. That is my goal, changing the MOOD.
The MOOD happens by stealth. It stirs an old emotion and I slowly fall in the trap. For example, I feel vulnerable, here comes the inadequacy gremlins. Before I notice anything, I already want to prove myself to myself; consequently, I don’t stop for lunch, drink too much coffee, do not drink water at all, begin to think around circle, stops following my daily plan, do not exercise, meditate…the list goes on… Moreover, this is a mild encounter it can get worst with reverse results…like not doing feeling paralyzed and totally numb.
To forbid the Mood in my life I need to take care of myself no matter what happens. Drink 3 to 4 liters of water, go to the gym, take a walk in the woods, eat healthy food, drink a nutrimeal outside my office, take time to cleanse my spirit and organize my days to come. When I agree with myself, it is so easier. I feel exquisite. When I feel exquisite, I serve better. My concentration is channeled like in a funnel. These moments are graceful and energetically free from burdens. I can work and accomplish so much in less time. That space within amazes me. I keep my focus on the task, I take notes, I have a clear a vision of my desired outcome, I see the big picture, I feel confident and in control. There is no blur nor missing steps, the execution is flowing and flawless.
I am in my Zone daring the MOOD.
I want to change the world; I am making health, freedom and happiness as the number one currency in the world for my business. By the way, I believe happiness is overrated, happiness is the most normal state of mind of all, and it is a gift from birth. So, I’m creating a wonderful extraordinary planet to live on, I dream food for 100% of living being on the planet, water for every single one, non-violent communication, no more slavery just living. I dream a lot, I envisioned my dream until it became crystal clear. I know I am not alone in this evolution because more than 90% of the human population feels like I do. It is time for a change. We all feel it but I guess we do not know how to begin with that new step of our humanity.
To be quite honest, I really want the world to change its mind about the way we solve our problems, but I am as well attached to many things. What about you?
Before I unplugged the television, my belief around fixing the world was soaking in the fear of losing either what I possessed or what I strived to get. I was into the bad habit of holding on to everything in case the world either crashed or collapsed. The fear of lacking of everything from A to Z tainted my ability to see myself as a potential suitable change factor. I felt powerless most of my life, mostly powerless because change had become synonym of war, blood, orphans, fear, famine, camps. As a kid I watched the news every night at suppertime. I was fed with the fear of change through the cold war and then with all the other conflicts around the world.
As far as I can remember, I always wished for us to live in a more peaceful and even-handed world. That is my purpose. Making it happen on a human scale. Making a difference on a very sustainable human scale. It means refusing the powerlessness mood that keep us away from building a better world for everybody including us. My first challenge is to blog, reach out and create a community of persons willing to feel healthy, happy, to experiment generosity and to be the change. I am building a network, a list, a community. May I count you in?
“For things to improve, you have to improve. For things to get better, you have to get better. For
things to change, you have to change. When you change, everything changes for you.” Jim Rohn.
I am a better person, a better artist, a better entrepreneur, a better blogger, a better version of me when I serve a higher purpose. My first step is to embody my purpose in a website and to make it real and online. To do it. To keep doing it. To serve.
Resolve and reach.
Resolve means trying new things for different outcomes.
Reach means stretching beyond our upper limits to get it.
On your toes with soul.
Free to Daydream. Like a prayer, a whisper in a universal language to connect the dots between us. I know we stopped dreaming a long time ago, may be before the Prophets began to drop their wisdom on us. You know, Jesus, Confucius, Buddha, Mahomet, I mean all of them, even the ones that do not come to mind as I write this. So Humanity stopped dreaming, we stopped dreaming. The amazing thing is that we are stuck with an amazing ability to shape our world and to design our lives but to put it bluntly, we forgot how to feel free daydream. I wonder what the world would look like if we were to believe in our abilities to change the world, beginning right now.
For example, how about remembering how easy, fulfilling, relaxing it is to dream awaken. How it feels liberating to let go of the burdens and just lie down on the floor or in the grass, looking at the sky, closing our eyes, and then just dream awaken. Dreaming without sleeping is the art of building a new reality for our lives, consciously. This is one of the many tools we stopped using. However, we were actively doing so as kids and teenagers. Instinctively, we were really good at focusing our attention to craft in our mind an alternate reality to answer our desires. We would dream the life we really wanted for the next summer, or just the games we really wanted to play the next day with the neighbors. We envisioned how we wanted to feel in our days, in love, in friendships. We were dedicated to craft our daily lives. So what changed?
I know we are »busy », scheduled, job performing, money generators, parents, family, debts; I know all of that shit happened to most of us. I always felt like losing a huge part of my life on »empty spaces », like trying to fit a piece of me in the wrong puzzle. Does that make sense to you?
Several years ago, I was »honestly » leading myself to believe I did not have anything to do with that way of life. I was comfortable with the no choosing, no questioning, living in the box, looking outside from the outside, watching too much television, feeding my mind spirit and soul with garbage ideas, bad news and a dream life I would sit down and watch night after night after night. I stopped dreaming by myself, which is not an excuse but a fact. All these years I gave away my inner power to create the life that I really wanted and I simply agreed to feel sad, powerless and defeated. Why is that?
Well I guess in my case, it is easier watched than done.
Therefore, I disconnected the cable and the television. I got back into reading, writing, journaling and daydreaming. This first set of actions is actually resetting my life. It is changing my perception of time, I feel less stressed, more communicative, I feel more confident in my own abilities to design my way of life and share everything there is to share. I feel more freedom, more space for myself to choose what I really want to do with my awaken minutes. It is not meditation. It’s daydreaming.
So, to change the world is to change my world as a first step. I got back into daydreaming as a daily practice to get in touch with the lightness of the life, the grace of being alive. I allow myself to feel gratitude for the moments we have to share with my world. Just breathe in and dive into your desires, believe what you imagine, take in all that energy and feel absolutely empowered to change your world. Then, daydream it!